castaneda

started reading carlos castaneda..it blows my mind away

so far:
1.

delete your personal history.

let people comprehend you without labels or explanations, without history and prejudice - good or bad. people that know you "good" limitate your possibilities by their firm definitions of you.
and, what's not less important - know your friends. not wanna-bees, but your real ones.

2. the second instrument that appears in the book is the most important (and i hope i'm already there with this one) -

don't take urself too seriousely
personal importance is nonsense and has to be elominated. {at least now i have a nice explanation to me being a clown at the end of important meetings..sometimes from the very beginning..}

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its so gr8 (not) to learn smth and 5 mins later to have an opportunity to practice. i must admit that understanding the nonsense of selfimportance feeling turned out to be unexpectedly not-easy. well, every lesson comes when it's time, although as my educated friends say "coincidence is not necessarily a casualty".

sometimes

sometimes it's crucial to perform a small uber-bitch play in order to make ppl appreciate ur endless nice-ness and friendliness and remind them of an alternative.

clumsy by default

i decided that i'm clumsy be default and enjoy this fact very much because this way even if nothing interesting or exciting is happenning - your living will still be entertaining you..in case that you are self -jokable of course.

having an extraordinary day in it's boringness today i was going crazy. But the decision was to flow with it and spend a nice n easy eve - gym, home early, some more work, bed early and then maybe for a change work in time.

It begun by the book - speedy walking on the race i found out that Top Gear show was on - which made my speedy walking last about 45 miuntes instead of the intended 15. and of course i almost flew out of the race when they were spinning the wheel and i tried to lean to a side with the car on a screen, but happily i caught myself on time to avoid inter-gym-forever-joke.
some more excercises and i was out in the rain happy and fit. olimpic fit.

that was when i spotted a bus across the street willing to approach the bus stop. I made some calculations and started the olimpic strint towards the but stop against the time and the traffic light. it was an unfair competition, but i felt that walkin for 45 mins today made me strong and fast as a tiger. i was doing my very best results and the last meters we were almost even. Finally I made it to the bus on time, the driver was extatic almost clapping, congratulating me and I enterted the bus as a champion.
I took my seat. Opened the coat cause i could hardly breath. pulled my hair up. took the book out of the bag and stared at it still happy with meself. It was then when the bus made an unexpected and more than that - UNSCHEDULED turn right.
and no, i was not kidnapped ny terrorists, neither the driver was fulling around. It was not my bus.

when i stepped out of it i was in the middle of nowhere and very amused by this silly situation. luckily i reallized that my good old friend whom i havent seen for a while and was planning to during next week lives super close so in ten minutes we were having our coffee and donuts and laughing our hearts out.

that's what i call clumsy by default and enjoying every minute of it ;)